S I X T E E N

This number is significant today for a few reasons. 

It's a new year - 2016. Hard to believe that 2015 has already passed us by. So many emotions as we continued on our path through cancer-land, and the new people we met and stories we heard along the way. This community of parents and children is unlike any other I have known. I am honoured to know these families and to share in their victories and heartbreaks.

I realize it's been a long time since I've posted any actual updates. I guess the main reason for that is that everything is going according to the plan! Jaxon continues to have monthly appointments. I've made a blurb on the side bar to describe what his current treatment protocol dictates.

In November Jax had his S I X T E E N T H lumbar puncture (spinal tap) under sedation. If everything continues to go according to the plan and protocol, he will have about 6 more before the anticipated end of his treatment in June 2017. We are well aware that everything going according to the plan is something we should not hold onto too tightly. 

We have now been in Long-Term Maintenance for just over one year, approaching Day 57 of Cycle 5. While much of the time we carry on with regular life and it could appear as though he is "cancer-free", that is not the whole picture. We are ever vigilant to watch out for potential exposures to illness. What is a minor, common, viral or bacterial infection for a child with a healthy immune system ... can rapidly become dangerous for someone like Jax who is immune-compromised. 

The dosages of the oral chemo he gets every day (and extra on Thursdays) are calculated based on his absolute neutrophil count (ANC). They want his ANC to stay between 0.5 and 1.5. Since beginning LTM in Dec. 2014 his ANC has stayed perfectly where they want it. At his last appointment in December, it was elevated above 1.5 so he got a minor increase of his Thursday chemo (methotrexate). He was also at the end of a viral cough/cold, so that could explain his elevated ANC. Since he had been hovering close to 1.5 for several months and then jumped to 2.3, they decided to see how he handles an increase. At his appointment on January 6th we'll find out if the dosage will stay the same or will be adjusted. Some kids run really high ANC all the time and are constantly seeing meds increase, some run really low and are on low percentages of meds. If the standard dose is 100%, some will get closer to 150% and some only 10%. Each kid is different, and the treatment protocol is designed to treat each patient according to their blood counts. He takes his 6MP first thing in the morning, and then has to wait one hour before he can eat or drink anything other than clear fluids. Some days, the wait is easier than others. 

Dex. Ooooooohhhh, Dex. 
Steroids are a powerful cancer fighter. I don't know why or how they work, but they do. Younger kids in cancer treatment take dexamethasone. Older kids and those who don't handle Dex well take Prednisone. They are taken for varying stretches of time all through treatment. Jax had 28 days at the very beginning, 2 stretches of 7 days (with 7 days off in between) in the most intense part of his treatment, and now takes them 5 days every month. Along with Dex comes mood swings, hunger, anger, hunger + anger = HANGER (it's a thing), agitation, short fuse, food cravings and aversions ... etc. The side effects are the most intense while he's taking the meds, and they can last up to a week afterwards. Even when he's not 'under the influence', I see some effects. He often tells me "I just don't know what to DO!" He said once "I wish I could go back to before I had cancer because I used to always know what to do and now I don't know what to do!" I think it's a restlessness and that's the best way he knows to explain it. Knowing he's hungry but not knowing what to eat. Fixating on something to eat but then not wanting it after he finally gets it. It's a tricky balance to navigate his mood swings, knowing that he is battling a chemical force. We work hard to extend grace while at the same time, ensuring he doesn't learn behaviours and carry them into his regular life. Roid Rage is no joke, and it has a mighty impact on many days of our life. 10-14 days of the month ... we tread lightly.

I found this perfectly worded quote online:

We still have to pay close attention to his body temperature. If he spikes a fever over 38.5* we need to get to the hospital immediately to begin IV antibiotics and find out if a bacterial infection is causing the fever. He could go septic very quickly if there is an infection in his port / line / bloodstream. 

I don't think very much about his monthly bloodwork until we get close to his appointment day. I don't dwell on the possibility of relapse, but as any oncology parent will tell you, the nagging thought is never far away. Remission is a wonderful place to be, but it can go sideways at any time. We remain hopeful that his body will continue to respond well to the treatment with minimal long-term side effects. 

At our appointment at BCCH in December he had an evaluation with an Occupational Therapist. He is part of a study group that is monitoring the effects of Vincristine, the IV chemo he gets every month. I don't have the results of her findings yet. He did the same tests after the first month of treatment.  She was short on time so couldn't complete all the exercises, but I'm hoping we can get that done when we go next time.

She was wearing protective gear because he had a cough, and she didn't want to pick anything up and pass it on to other patients and staff. It was the very end of the cough and no one was really concerned he was contagious, but the precautions must be taken.

It was lovely to be at RMH just before Christmas. The Grand Living Room is lined with about a dozen fully thematically decorated trees. The second night we were there, RMH had arranged for a bus to take families to Canyon Lights at Capilano Suspension Bridge. We had a great time, despite the rain. The ride through the city in the big, tall, fancy charter bus was probably just as exciting for my little country bumpkins.

I got to deliver some soft cozy hats made by my friend Jenny and her grade 4 students. Sweet Samantha picked one for herself and had a hard time deciding which of her many friends to give the others to. Jenny just gave me another bag full of hats to share around. She had made one for Jax when he was first diagnosed and it was such a perfect gift. She actually sent two for him in different sizes. We kept one and gave the other to Kaynan, the little guy we shared a room with our very first night at BCCH. 

Jax and Marek are 3 years apart in age but have a special bond as they were both diagnosed with leukemia on the very same day. We met in the halls of 3B. His Mama Amanda holds a very special place in my heart and we keep close tabs on how each other and our boys are doing. The boys follow the exact same treatment schedule. They travel to BCCH/RMH every month from their home in Whitehorse. We see them every six months when we go to our required appointments at BCCH. It should be noted that it's faster for them to drive to the airport, fly to YVR, drive to RMH ... than it is for us to drive to the ferry, cross the water and drive to RMH. 

Intermittently over the past year, Jax has had signs of blood in his urine. Just a few streaks one time and a slight pink tinge half a dozen other times. It's always been just once and then all is normal. No pain, no fever associated with the blood. Way back in the first month of his treatment, it was thought he might have a kidney stone, but nothing has ever been definite. Ultrasounds and x-rays have been inconclusive. Because of this he has had a few nephrology (kidney) and urology appointments both in Victoria and at BCCH. Again, all very mysterious as to what could be causing these random episodes. His kidneys seem to be happy and healthy with no lumps or bumps or kinks or cracks. We expect to just wait and see if any more symptoms occur and his team of docs will decide where to go from there. 

The wait to see the nephrologist was excruciatingly lengthy. 90 minutes after our appointment time, we met this lovely gal from Sydney, Australia. She's a resident, or medical student, or something. Can't remember. She went over his history with me and gave him a thorough once-over. Once she and the top doc looked at the ultrasound pics from the day before and reviewed his urine samples ... they sent us on our way. Poor bubs was super hungry as I let him sleep too long and he had that one-hour wait before he could eat. I had only brought a few snacks and the Dex was talking to him about ALL THE THINGS he wanted to eat. I wish I could remember this lady's name, she was great with him. She couldn't believe how strong he was, beating her twice in an arm wrestle. He could believe it.

This is my friend Sondra and her boy, Lucas. He is S I X T E E N. 

He was diagnosed with Leukemia this week. My heart aches for this dear family as their lives have taken this unexpected and frightening turn. I pray, with hope, that he responds well to treatment and can get back to the business of being 16 sooner than he could have thought possible after such an upheaval. They face the same three years of treatment that we are in the midst of (some different medicines because he is older), but his prognosis is very good. 

that was a very long day

November 12th
Interim Maintenance 2 - Day 31 {of 56}

We often have loooooong days in the clinic at our sort-of-local hospital in Victoria, or at BC Children's. Most clinic days are long-ish. I rarely make any other plans on clinic days. Anything extra that gets accomplished is a bonus. We usually know when a day will be exceptionally long, but sometimes we don't. Last Wednesday (IM2 Day 31) was one of the days we were there much longer than expected. Jax had a scheduled LP (#11 - only about 11 more to go between now and June 2017!) and additional IV chemo. The LP always gets done first. Jax, Marty and I slept at Jeneece Place the night before so we'd have an easy morning before the appointment. We got to the hospital at about 8:40 and began the process of weighing, measuring, vitals-taking, port accessing, waiting around for bloodwork results. This visit also required fasting since he'd be sedated for the LP. By about 10/10:30 we learned there was a delay as the pediatric intensivist we needed for Jaxon's sedation was in the ICU with a child in an acute trauma situation (ill or injured, I'm not sure). At 11:00 we learned that the earliest possible time for Jax's LP to go ahead was 1pm. Ugh. That is a long time to be waiting around, not eating. Marty and I didn't eat or drink in front of Jax since we was not allowed. I managed to sneak out and get Marty some cereal, and then later a bagel that he ate in another room. I got my tea before my didn't-have-my-tea-yet headache could kick in. I even managed to get to the cafeteria for the famed Butter Chicken that is only served on Wednesdays. It was really, really tasty. I ate it outside Jax's room. By 12:30 he was getting super duper antsy, hungry, thirsty, and thusly - cranky. The intensivist did indeed show up at 1:00 so we were able to get the LP going. I'm amazed at what our oncologist can do in a span of just a few minutes after Jax falls asleep. She accesses his cerebrospinal fluid, harvests a small vial of it for analysis (has always been cancer-free), and injects 8mg of chemo directly into his spinal column. This is done because IV chemo does not cross the blood/brain barrier so any sneaky cancer cells hiding in there would have free reign.

The LP procedure finished in record time and he woke up quickly. He had to stay horizontal for an hour to prevent a headache and to allow the medicine to spread out in his spinal fluid. Once he was no longer seeing double, thanks to the sleepy meds he had, TV watching ensued. We had the "private suite" for the day, because of the LP and the entourage of medical folks that come along with it. Marty made himself quite at home in the treatment room beside us with a DS, blankie and pillow on the couch.

As unpleasant as the hungry waiting-for-a-spinal-tap was, I was comforted knowing that my child was not in an urgent care situation, and the thought of the other family going through a time of umcertainty put our delay into perspective.

Heather, Child Life student, came with Christmas crafts for the boys.
Each decorated a clear ball ornament and Jax did an extra one that
will be on a special tree on display at the Empress Hotel!

IV chemo of the Vincristine and Methotrexate variety were administered in short order, and we were soon on our way. We left by about 3pm and headed to Jeneece Place to pack up and head home. Jax fell asleep in the stroller on the 5 minute walk from the hospital to JP, and slept about another hour while I packed and loaded the car. He woke up just in time to realize he didn't get to play on the outdoor riding toys at JP but was consoled by the promise of pizza on the way home. Both boys then napped in the car. It was a late bedtime that night as they were full of energy from all that snoozing.

Jaxon's next treatment (IM2 Day 41) is Monday, November 24th, which also happens to be my birthday. He and I will spend the day at the clinic then we'll head back home for our Imadene Staff Family Christmas Dinner Extravaganza.

Following that appointment, the next big day is bloodwork on December 9 to see if he's good to go to start LONG-TERM MAINTENANCE in Vancouver on December 10. If he passes his blood test, he and I will go straight to the ferry. I'm hoping we are able to stay at RMH for that night and the next one.

The protocol for rest of Jaxon's tratment, Long-Term Maintenance is yet to be determined. He is part of a large study about the best way to treat ALL with successful outcomes and minimal long-lasting side effects. He will be on one of 4 arms of treatment and it's really confusing to try to explain, but I'll do my best ... but that's another post.

Sometimes I forget that he's fighting the greatest battle of his wee little life ...

done with DEX {for now}

DEX, or Dexamethasone, is a cancer fighting steroid. Jaxon had 2.3ml of DEX twice a day for the first 28 days of treatment. We met DEX again for a week at the beginning of August (3.75ml twice a day), and today we finished the second week-long "pulse" (3.75mg twice a day). DEX comes back into the picture again in December when he begins Long-Term Maintenance.

I say 'we' because it's really a joint effort to get him to take the meds. He's supposed to take an antibiotic (Septra) every Fri-Sat-Sun (for the entire 3 year treatment). Since it's been so much work to get him to take the DEX, I delayed the Septra by a few days. He started this week's course of that at bedtime tonight. DEX tablets were 3 pills of varying sizes in the morning and one big one at bedtime. I've learned that the liquid Ranitidine he has had to take with the DEX is actually just Zantac. We got that in tablet form as well and gave 1/4 of a pill with the bedtime DEX. Septra is half a larger pill every morning and evening for 3 days a week, usually on the weekend.

On his last round of DEX and Septra, he stopped tolerating liquid meds. I had to add quite a bit of other things to try disguise the taste and help it go down. It just got to be too much volume that he had to take in, and he started throwing them up right after drinking them, so we've switched to tablets. This has made things so much easier. I poke a hole in a jelly bean with a sharp knife and then shove the pill in. He takes one regular bean for every medicated bean. I've been extra vigilant with teeth brushing as he has 4 known cavities. Sorry to the Dentist, but the Oncologist wins on this one. I'm hoping that we'll eventually be able to transition him to swallowing tabs (maybe inside gel caps) so we can just get it over with! My friend who has a daughter with ALL a little older than Jax told me about this cool little straw - we might order a few of those. I know that in time, he'll eventually learn to swallow pills. The thing I struggle with is that I try to not make little things more difficult than they need to be, since he has to comply with so many "big things" and has no choice or control. I'm okay to try a few gimmicky things to make the transition easier for him (and for me!). Down the road he will have many pills to take, and we just can't be pumping so many jelly beans into him.

Yesterday, the boy ate ALL. DAY. LONG. While he was still eating one thing, he was demanding asking me what he could eat next. Sometimes while I was still preparing the previous request, he'd be placing his order for the next item. I wish I had documented everything he consumed. When I teased him about how he ate all day long he said "Mooooom ... you're giving me medicine that makes me hungry!" It's so strange to be forcing him to take meds that I know are going to radically change his behaviour and demeanour. He doesn't get angry about food so much, but if he doesn't get his way about where we are going and when, what we are planning or even just thinking about planning, what movie or game the boys will watch or play ... watch out! Now that he's had his last dose of DEX, the symptoms will gradually fade over the next few days.

He obsesses over food, but it is often an agonizing decision for him as to what he wants to eat. My suggestions are rarely accepted. Or, he wants one thing, and one thing only - usually something I've run out of or didn't think to stock in the fridge or pantry. Sometimes he thinks he wants something very specific but then when it's prepared and placed before him, he's lost the craving. There's something called "chemo tongue" - the meds change the taste of things. He's eaten a shocking amount of Mr. Noodles. Though I restricted him (and the other boys) to one package a day, we ran out. *gasp*

Yesterday alone, there was french toast (no crust), tomato soup (in the daytime and also in the wee hours of the morning), seaweed flavoured rice crackers, pumpkin pie, beef stroganoff (middle of the night), chunks of cheddar cheese, chunks of garlic sausage (no crust! I peeled the paper off, he just didn't like the outside part), grilled cheese sandwich (no crust, sometime close to midnight), milk, decaf tea with milk and a bit of sugar and plenty of stool softener (it's called PEG - he gets this every day), 8 jelly beans - 4 of them laced with DEX. I know I'm forgetting some. Pizza! He had pizza - no crust, just the toppings.

Today's tally ... before noon:
• One small square of PB&J sandwich, leftover from yesterday (no crust)
• 2 farm fresh eggs, scrambled with grated cheese and ketchup (did not finish)
• 300 ml milk
• Pumpkin pie (store bought, no crust, lots of whip - from a can)
• 200 ml cold water
• 2 seconds later ... "I'm still hungry."
• Nachos (did not finish)
• "While you're making the nachos, what can I eat?"
• Decaf tea with milk and PEG, aka "poo powder"
• "Mommy? I'm hungry."
• Me: "Let's do your medicine beans now so we can get it over with."
• Jax: "Ok. And then right after that I'm going to ask for something to eat."
• 6 jelly beans (3 with meds)
• Handful of cheddar flavoured rice crackers
• 300 ml tea + peg

We've run out of Mr. Noodles so he's persistently hassling me to go buy some. I'm not keen to take him into the store as he is quite fragile right now, feeling downright crummy. His ANC (absolute neutrophil count = immunity) was .38 last Monday, and I will be taking him for peripheral blood work tomorrow to see where he's at. We've been told to expect it to drop right down to nothing. Anything below .50 is considered "critically low", and we want it to be upwards of .75-1.5. Paul and the big boys are gone fishing for the day so maybe we'll see if Oma can go get us some groceries.

With his dropping ANC (due to the 3 doses of DOXO this past month), his energy level has rapidly decreased. He spends most of the day resting or lounging. He's put himself down for a nap in his bed twice this week.

His hair is falling out again, also thanks to the DOXO. Our oncologist said she has never seen anyone keep their hair after DOXO. It will likely be all gone within the next month, maybe sooner. The meds he'll get in the next few weeks also cause severe hair loss. It had started to grow again after he shed quite a bit during the first 6 weeks of treatment, but didn't lose it fully. This time it's just in time for cozy winter hats! I'm thankful for the cooler weather so I don't have to worry so much about him overheating or getting dehydrated. Much easier to keep warm than to cool off.

On Saturday night he started to complain of lower back pain. He was soon in agony, yet didn't want to take any pain meds (morphine) because he'd have to drink it (no tabs of that yet). "Mom, that stuff tastes AWFUL!" He conceded, and slept well until the meds wore off and his hunger woke him up at midnight. He started to have similar pain last night but it didn't get as bad as the night before. I spoke to the oncologist on-call at BCCH and he suspects the pain was likely caused by the DEX. That stuff is no joke!

Today is Day 22 of Delayed Intensification. Next clinic appointment is Monday Sept 8. He and I will stay at Jeneece Place the night before, as the appointment is early and he has to fast for a possible sedated procedure. The planned treatments for this day (Day 29) are count dependent. Blood work is first on the list and if he makes counts (ANC > .75 & Platelets > 75), he'll have an LP (lumbar puncture/spinal tap) to check his cerebral spinal fluid (CSF) for leukemic cells (this is done with every LP and has always been negative). After the fluid is drawn, he'll get more methotrexate injected in his spinal fluid (IT-MTX). If it's a go that day, he'll also begin 4 days in a row of an IV chemo called Cytarabine (ARAC). It will be done in the clinic in Victoria so he and I will stay those 4 nights at Jeneece Place. He'll stay "accessed" so there will only be one poke in his button on the first day, and the needle and short tube will stay in until he's finished the 4 daily doses. That day he'll also start an oral med (Thioguanine or 6-TG) for Days 29-42.  However ... if he doesn't pass his blood test on that day, we'll get a chemo break and try again the following week. We've been told to expect at least a week delay before starting DI Day 29. It is more common to have a delay than to go ahead as planned. Does that make sense? Probably not.

So if Day 29 is on Sept. 8 or 15 ... we'll have a 4 days of IV ARAC, 4 days off, then 4 days IV ARAC again. I'm considering going to Vancouver for the second cycle of ARAC, just for a change of pace and to see friends at RMH and our Doc at BCCH, but I'm not sure yet. My folks will be here for a week or two starting on Sept. 15 so I don't want to be gone for most of their visit (even though I'd be away in Victoria anyway). But if he has to wait a week or two for counts to climb back up, that might not be an issue. We shall see. We hold our plans very loosely around here.

I've rambled long enough. I'll end this with the great news that Paul and the boys did catch a big one! A 15 lb. Spring salmon off the shores of Parksville. When Jax heard they caught one, all he could think or talk about was how much he wanted to eat salmon. It was a few more hours until he got his wish, and in the meantime he had some chocolate chip pancakes. He also wanted some Kraft Dinner right before Paul and the boys got home. I shut that down pretty quick and he accepted my decision. Just barely.

The salmon was really tasty. Looking forward to more meals of that.

Standard course of treatment

At this stage in Jaxon's treatment, all indications are that he will follow this protocol, understanding that there may be delays or complications that could arise over the 3 year period.

About treatment, from the Children's Oncology Group website: 

(no longer available online - I'll have to find a new link. RZ 20-Apr-2025)

ALL is a cancer of the blood, so treatment is systemic, meaning it affects the entire body. At the time of diagnosis, the healthcare team will insert a central line to provide treatment.

Chemotherapy is the mainstay of treatment.

• Induction:
 The first phase of treatment usually lasts four weeks. Children receive three or four drugs by mouth, intravenously (into a vein), or into the spinal fluid (intrathecal delivery). The combination of drugs depends upon the leukemia factors as above. The goal of this phase is to kill the leukemia cells and allow normal blood cells to return.

A bone marrow aspirate is performed at the end of this phase. The bone marrow is examined under a microscope, and is expected to show only normal cells. This is called remission. This does not mean that the child is cured, because without further treatment the disease will return. However, it is a very important first step on the road towards being cured. Nearly 98 of every 100 children with ALL enter remission at the end of the first month of treatment. Other tests (such as minimal residual disease) may be performed on the bone marrow and may be more sensitive at finding leukemia cells than looking under a microscope.

• Consolidation:
 The second phase of treatment lasts from 12-16 weeks. Different drugs from those used during Induction are given by mouth and intravenously.

The purpose of the consolidation phase is to kill leukemia cells that may remain after the drugs used in induction. Another main focus is on treating and preventing the growth of leukemia cells within the central nervous system (CNS prophylaxis). To accomplish this, spinal taps with intrathecal chemotherapy (directly into the spinal fluid) are performed weekly. For certain types of leukemia, or if leukemia cells were present in the spinal fluid at the time of diagnosis, radiation therapy may be given to the brain and the spinal column during this phase. In most cases, part of the Consolidation phase will include treatment with the chemotherapy drug methotrexate. Methotrexate is given intravenously, either at lower doses in the clinic or at higher doses that require a 2-3 day stay in the hospital.

• Delayed intensification:
 This 8-week phase of treatment includes medicines similar to those given in Induction and Consolidation. This has been shown to be helpful in preventing leukemia from returning. The exact timing of the doses and the specific drugs used depend upon the individual characteristics of a particular child’s disease.

• Maintenance:
 The final phase of treatment lasts two or three years. Maintenance is much less intensive than the previous treatment and consists mostly of oral medications given at home. There are also intermittent intravenous and intrathecal medications given throughout this phase.